Thursday, August 31, 2006

P E T I X (namiss ko to!)

After a few weeks of being busy, I finally had my share of the “unbusy” times. :D Here I am looking for things to do. Weee! It really feels so good to have a queue of urgent tasks, and after a while run out of things to do because you’ve already accomplished everything that needs to be done. ^_^

Still, I can’t leave the office at 5:30 on the dot. Not because I have work to do, but because I have nowhere to go while waiting for the clock to strike 6:30 or 7:00. We have to be at San Juan at 8:30pm to pick up our tickets for the Gary V. concert! Yahoooo! Finally, I’m getting to see Gary perform live again. He’s really such a performance icon! But the good thing about his concerts and his performances are not only the songs, not only the choreographies, not only the stage, but the messages that he tries to impart to his audience. Those messages make me want to visit his performances time and again. Tomorrow, I expect to be overwhelmed and be blessed. Tomorrow’s concert is much more exciting coz I'll be with Nikki, Mama, Ate Jhem and Ate Jhem friend or Ate Jhem's boyfriend (still not sure whom she can tag along for the fifth ticket).

I really had a nice work day. Everything light and easy. No pressures. No deadlines (actually, there is, but the bulk and the burden is not on me :P). No irate users to follow up. Haaay… ^_^

Currently listening to “Kami nAPO muna album”. Finally, I had time to search and download. :P

25 Beautiful One-liners

1. Give God what's right..... not what's left.

2. Man's way leads to hopeless end ......
God's way leads to an endless hope .

3. A lot of kneeling will keep you in good standing.

4. He who kneels before God can stand before anyone.

5. In the sentence of life, the devil may be a comma, but never let him be the period.

6. Don't put a question mark where God puts a period.

7. Are you wrinkled with burden?
Come to the church for a face-lift.

8. When praying, don't give God instructions...... just report for duty.

9. Don't wait for six strong men to take you to church.

10. We don't change God's message......
His message changes us.

11. The church is prayer-conditioned.

12 When God ordains, He sustains.

13. WARNING: Exposure to the Son may prevent burning.

14. Plan ahead......It wasn't raining when Noah built the ark.

15. Most people want to serve God, but only in an advisory position.

16. Suffering from truth decay?
Brush up on your Bible.

17. Exercise daily ...... walk with the Lord.

18. Never give the devil a ride......
he will always want to drive.

19. Nothing else ruins the truth like stretching it.

20. Compassion is difficult to give away because it keeps coming back.

21. He who angers you controls you.

22. Worry is the darkroom in which negatives can develop.

23. Give Satan an inch & he'll be a ruler.

24. Be ye fishers of men.....
You catch them & He'll clean them.

25. God doesn't call the qualified,
He qualifies the called.


Message forwarded by Ate Teena (churchmate). I've been wanting to say this yesterday through a prayer post, but since i'm into a post about one-liners, I'll just say it in one line also.

I missed you, Lord! Nice to feel your embrace again. Ü

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Feeling crappy...

Just when I thought, I am all ok... insecurity will begin to creep in.

Just when I thought, I am complete... discontentment will start barging in.

I am so afraid of not having the things that are so important to me because of what I cannot do.

I am so scared to be unloved and be misjudged because of who I am not.

Woke up this morning, still having that same crappy feeling as last night. Inspite of the reassurances, I still can't get all the frustrations off my system. But yes, I know, everything will be better. They ought to be.

I thought I am all over this, and yet...


Friday, August 25, 2006


I really felt frustrated because of all the misfortunes that I had yesterday. I felt like bursting up last night. My eyes have been welling up since that nasty experience with *THE* officemate. I felt so heavy. Tried to cry it all out before going to sleep, but yesterday was really harsh that I found it so hard to recover. Nikki asked if I want to talk about it. I told him that I didn't want to talk about it anymore, I just want to rest, and I bid him goodnight. He replied with this message:

Ok. Di ko na lang muna ibbring up yung topic. Good night na din. Sana makatulog ka ng mahimbing, at sana mabawasan na, kung di man mawala lahat, yung mga frustrations mo.. I sincerely pray that things clear up tomorrow. I Love You, and I really hope that you find peace soon.

Can't help but worry,

Cried even more when I read this. Because of the busy-ness of the day, I was not able to tell him all the misfortunes that I had. That time, I wanted badly to see him in person, tell him everything. I imagined him, drying up my tears. That made me feel so helpless. I can only well up even more. I told him how I long to narrate to him my frustrations in person. He said:
And I long to comfort you. But, right now, I can only tell you that I know that you can survive that heaviness. You are strong; you already were, even before we met. Ü But when the weight becomes unbearable, sometimes, it is best to put it aside, rest for the night, and pick it up the next day with renewed strength. Ü I know that it is hard to put every bit aside, but you can put aside enough, just to have some relief. Ü
No one could have said that better. As if magic struck me and I felt lighter. I thanked him and told him that I may already be strong, but having him now makes a lot of difference. It would not have been that easy to recover without him. Normally, I would just forcecully get myself to sleep with all the heaviness and wake up the next day still not feeling well. But his words made me feel better. A few seconds later, he called, we talked for a while. The spite of the day was swathed by that few moments of sweet conversation. Then we hang up. I stayed awake for a few while, and finally my system voluntarily slumbered in peace. I had a restful sleep. I woke up with a nice mood, and in Nikki's words, I am ready to pick up the heaviness with renewed strength.

My boyfriend is such a great blessing. Ü

Thursday, August 24, 2006

What a day!

Wheeeew! What a terrible day!

Had a bad morning, a working lunch, a very busy and dragging afternoon, and a really awful evening. Ok na sana. I was able to recover na from my bad morning and busy afternoon by deciding to have a tea break with my teammate. But just before my working day ends, I received a very* sarcastic*, *intimidating* and *degrading* expression from an officemate!

me: ok na po ba yung sa (system name)?
officemate: (blows) teka lang ha
me: nakatayo lang sa tabi niya, thinking that he would entertain my request (usually kasi, ganun. ine-entertain agad request)
officemate: deretso lang sa ginagawa niya, parang walang ibang tayo sa paligid niya
me: napansin na na wala nga siyang balak na i-entertain ang request ko
me: sir, pa-advise na lang po sa email kapag ok na.
officemate: oooo-kkkkkk (with matching 8-| expression)
me: (in the sweetest way I can) Salamat po sir!

While I'm writing this, naisip ko na ang babaw pala nung scenario para maapektuhan ako nang ganito. But if I can only make you picture what actually happened. :(

Haaay... Tapos nakita ko pa 'to. T_T Tama! Busy busy busy me nga. I won't deny that. Right now, the upshots of this busy-ness is beginning to creep in me. Kakatakot! Bigla ako nalungkot at naawa sa sarili ko.

Walang kwentang post. Walang kwentang araw. Ayoko na! Uwi na ako. This day has to end.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

[FWD]: Installing Love

A forwarded email message from my highschool instructor. Kakatuwa yung analogy. :D At a certain point of view, it's quite corny. But come to think of it, this is how it really works. Simple (and quite unlikely) analogy but deep meaning. Ü

Installing Love

Tech Support: Yes, How can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to
install Love. Can you guide me though the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready.
What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located
your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running
now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running ?

Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge
and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from
your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory
but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually
override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High
Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and
Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed.
Can you turn those off ?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke
Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and
Resentment have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is
that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program.

You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says,
"Error - Program not run on external components." What should I do?

Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up
to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In
non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before
you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following
files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system
will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty
programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all
directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely
gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files.
Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying
themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually
everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and
running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure
to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in
turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

Customer: Thank you, God.

How I wish, it's really this easy, especially for those people who hold a lot of bitterness within them. But if getting rid of the grudges really seems hard, it's nice to know that we can always get immediate assistance from the most capable Tech Support. Ü

Tuesday, August 15, 2006


Manfred sent me a text message last Saturday, requesting for prayer for our dear friend Rex. He was nabbed and was seriously injured because of multiple gunshots. It didn't sink in to me that easily that the person he was referring to was actually one of my closest classmates in college. And when I realized what he was talking about, I really got affected. He was such a dear friend. Now, he is at the hospital, trying to recover from that tragic incident.

I just can't imagine what those holduppers are feeling right now. If only there's a quick way that I can do just to show those bad guys the effect of their cruelty. If only they can see my friend right now. If only they can hear about his condition. Unfortunately, there is no way that I can do that. I can only accuse those bad guys of all the evil adjectives that I can think of. They will reap what they have sown in due time. I can only hope that their family be spared of the cruelty that they cause to other people. I can only pray for Rex and his family. I can only pray that that same incident will not happen to anybody else, especially to those who are close to me.

To everyone, please be safe.

Thursday, August 03, 2006


Aga ko sa office ngayon! 7:45 am! \:D/

Oh yes, that’s way too early for my supposed to be log in time that is 8:30 am. Almost an hour ahead. Pero mas gusto ko na yun kaysa ma-late na naman. Three consecutive days na akong late nakakapasok, usually in between 8:45 to 9am. And I really think that’s bad bad bad. Lately, I’m beginning to feel embarrassed with my tardiness. So, I decided to change habits – sleep earlier than usual, try to wake up early, try to finish my morning rituals as quickly as possible, and be more speedy in the things that I do, especially in the morning! For today, I was successful with that, I think I might need some friends to congratulate and wish me luck on this. Haha!

In order to arrive at the office this early, I have to leave home 10 or 15 minutes ahead of my usual departure time. If worse comes to worst, when I leave at 6:30, I will arrive at the office in between 8:30 to 9am. But if I leave at 6:15 or 6:20, I’ll arrive at the office in between 7:40 to 8am. Weird huh! Well, that’s why I have decided to leave not later than 6:20. =P

I love being early! It steers me clear of the many hassles – I get to avoid the file of bustling Makati employees at the van terminal, I don’t have to force myself to ride a jam-packed bus and stand at the isle up to EDSA-Taft (wearing high-heeled sandals most of the time #-o), I can afford to ignore monitoring my phone clock just because every minute that passes is a count of tardiness, I avoid cutting trip, I can sleep the whole time , and best of all, I have extra time for Petix! Woohoo!

Sarap pumasok ng maaga, problema lang talaga ang paggising ng maaga at pagkilos ng mabilisan. But I’m working on that! B-)